Sipping through a Java Mocha Chip at the local Starbucks and humming Kabira, I'd been reminiscing about what had happened in the past few months. I'd suffered a heartbreak. I was broken. Lost. Confused. At that point, all I used to spend my time on was gaze at the window, imagining myself in a sad Bollywood song. Basically, the super old cliché, where one thinks it's the end of the world coz just one thing didn't work out the way I wanted it to. But there came this point, and I'm so glad there did, where I realized, that you can't keep clinging to the past cause no matter how much you hold on to it, it's already gone and it's certainly not backwards that we want to move in our lives. There's a certain amount of guilt that I feel writing this cause a part of me actually felt, man, I'm really in love with my problem. The intense suffering that was caused by being screwed out of a situation that I so dearly valued and having being tossed into a deep abyss, I seemed to have forgotten what happiness was and almost accepted that this is where I was meant to be. But you know what? This really did serve as a wake up call coz admiteddly, I've matured along the course of the past few months, I've come to realize that heartbreaks are an essential part of our lives. So, I got out with the intent of capturing those moments that had made my life memorable so far. To travel, to interact, to gain experiences, to have insight on the many ways that life can screw us up but also....the way we can resurge from that situation more powerful than ever. It's like a vicious circle, much simply defined as life. We've all got that one thing that makes us the happiest, but we cling so much to it that once we achieve it, we question was it all worth it? A simple answer would be, it's about being in the moment, to make it count. It's entirely impossible, that everything that awaits me in life will fill my heart with joy, there'll be dark days ahead too and I hope there are......so I wisen. But I also wish, I have enough strength to endure this. You see, stuff like this is what makes our story interesting, one worth telling, one that inspires...

People essentially get lost when they think that their happiness is entirely dependent on materialistic stuff or some other person. But happiness is a condition, not a destination. It's like being tired or hungry. And let's face it, it's essential to be tired to enjoy a good night's sleep. It comes and goes, and that's okay. And only if more people thought this way, we'd have a merrier world. 

Inside Out is one of my favorite films of the year because it gives out a statement than just be an excuse for portaying emotions as cute. I walked out of theatre having realized that sadness elicts social support. So, instead of trying banish Sadness, we should cede to it. I'm not saying that we should dance out of the blue when we're upset but realize what has put us through this. And make a comeback, vowing now to repeat those mistakes. 

If I were to compare myself with the me from a few months prior, I wouldn't be able to tell if this was the person. You see, with time we become completely different persons that just happen to inhabit the same body, but there doesn't exist a single trait that seems recognizable. But should we mourn the loss of the person that we once were? What matters is how we transition in life, rationally speaking, there's no sense in mourning what we once were.

It's simple, if you want something in your life that you've never had you must be willing to do something to do something that you never have. Even if we fail, what better is there to live?